I don't know why and how, I just feel like I'm turning to be such a bad person. Not as bad as in a real bad way, but- I tend to look at people from their negative side.
I had a quite-deep-talk-and-joking session with my sister last night.
We usually tease each other and you know.. talk about our current circumstances and stuffs. And I poured out a lot of my... 'anger'?
Well, I wasn't angry, I just had some stuffs I need to throw away from my head. But then, I think my brain noticed that something is wrong.
Like how negative I was, because I've been 'judging' a lot of people for the passed few weeks.
And I feel that... it is not right. This is scaring me.
The fact that I talked bad about some people just because I don't like how they act and react about something, how they talk, and some bad habits of them- that's just stressing me out.
It is human nature, people said. But still, I ended up feeling guilty :(
Have any of you been through this too?
Honestly, I don't want to have negative thoughts about others. It is driving me crazy of how uncontrollable and how scary is human's mind. When you lost control of it, your mind and your mouth are the most dangerous thing in this world. You can harm people with your words. And I don't want it to happen.
And anyway, I apologise for this post. I just need something to say it out loud.
